I never thought that it would come to the day that things just slowly fade away and you don’t seem to care. We used to do everything together and want to be together all the time.. but now you can live without me, while i’m still here having all the same feelings for you. It’s hard to be heartbroken and disappointed my the one you love the most, it’s the worst feeling you can ever have. I know i try controlling you and your life, but I just wanted everything to be the same. It’s ridiculous because i know that no matter how hard i try, nothing will ever be the same. Seeing you pay more attention to other things is hard for me to handle because I’ve always been your main focus and number 1 priority, and i never wanted that to change. To you, it seems like it’s nothing bad. &yeah, you’re right. but also wrong. it’s true, i’d rather have you playing games than going out with your friends. but i never thought you’d let it go out of hand. i still wanna be the girl you talk to everyday. I might be a cry baby, but you just don’t know how much it hurts. you make me feel like trash when you ignore me and don’t chase after me. i feel neglected, and you make me feel like you don’t love me and that you don’t want to be with me. i want you to love me and care for me like you used to. i wanna hear you tell me you love me all the time. I want people to look at us and think that we’re a cute couple. I compare us to other couples because you don’t know how much i envy them. I never want you to know that i’m crying because i think you’ll get mad and tired of hearing me cry all the time. I want it to be like old times when you would tell me that you’re always gonna be there for me, you’d listen to me cry and you would try to make me feel better. but now, i don’t get those and i don’t get apologies anymore like i used to. even though you’re such a jerk to me, i still want to be with you. i don’t want to go find another guy who can treat me better. i just want us to make up and work things out and love eachother. i want you to love me the way you used to. but i know it’s never gonna happen….. it might sound corny and dumb, it might make you mad but this is how i feel. i have alot of issues that you have to deal with, but not all of it is my fault. i know i have trust issues, but its hard dealing with someone that constantly breaks their promises and never does anything they say they’re gonna do. please don’t keep my hopes up just to bring it down. how do you expect me to trust you when you always lie? its hard being here but yet, i still stand here. im dumb but this is all because i love you and i hate it. i hate it because i’m not happy being in this relationship but i wanna be happy. i want to be happy with you so much. i want to laugh and smile with you and i want to go and go romantic things with you. not yell and complain. it sucks seeing other girls happy and go on romantic dates with their boyfriends. i don’t expect you to take me to expensive places… i know you don’t have a job right now. but it seriously hurts knowing that your boyfriend doesn’t care about you. he tells you he loves you and cares about you but he never shows it ever… sometimes i wonder if you’re just dating me because of…